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Rambling: aimlessly wandering, taking an irregular course; straggling, spread out irregularly in various directions

I have to keep a journal for my English class.................................................. .......... ............ ........... here's to today

September 4, 2011

I’m in a weird mood. I feel like I’ve wasted most of my day, and I don’t like it. I need to be doing something, or my mind goes crazy. But once things get going crazy, I will want nothing more than to slow down, take a nap and watch a movie. I never feel satisfied. Okay, not never… there are certain times when I could do that one thing forever… like horseback riding. I haven’t ridden for 15 days, and it’s literally killing me. I’m hopefully going home next weekend to pass on the homecoming crown, but who cares. I’m excited to see my friends that are still in high school, but the part I’m most looking forward to is seeing my dear horse. I think about riding almost constantly, and it’s killing me. On Thursday I went for a run by myself, and passed by a small corral with horses right next to the gate. It took all of my will power not to stop and pet and smell them. I LOVE the smell of horses. There are different types of horse smells, but not having smelled anything “horse” for 2 weeks, I will welcome any of their scents to enter my system. Haha. Every time I go running on this certain road (I can’t remember exactly the address) I’m tempted to go knock on several doors and ask if they need anyone to ride their horses. Maybe one day I’ll get the courage to do just that. But if everything goes right, I will be riding this week!! Hooray!!!!!

For a while I thought it would be best to sell my horse, and then I wouldn’t have to worry about coming home and riding, and when I did come home I would just ride any one of the other horses at the barn, but I’m so glad I get to go home and ride MY horse. I miss her quirkiness. My parents rode her last week, and sent me pictures of her taking a nap in the arena, and it made me so homesick—for the barn. Countless times she would lie down and I would lay down right there next to her. I could sit on her, lean up against her, jump over her, pick out her feet, stretch and move her legs. She let me do anything I wanted. If she was sitting, I could sit on her and she would get up with me on her, kinda like what camels do. Haha

Yesterday was my first collegiate race. All the freshmen ran unattached. I did okay, I didn’t get last, so that was good. I ran about the same time I’ve been running since my freshman year in high school though, around 6:30 mile pace. Hopefully the next one will be better. I had a good kick, so that was encouraging. My parents came up to watch, which was really nice of them. Later that day Jill and I thoroughly cleaned the apartment and went to the Rocket Summer concert. It was pretty dang good. I didn’t write in my journal last night just because I didn’t feel like writing. I read it though, and it brought back so many memories.

I had a great plan set up for today, I was going to write to several missionaries, write a birthday letter for my sister, send the letter I’ve had written for several days, do laundry, and other stuff. I haven’t written any letters yet. I cooked dinner with Jill (and ate way too much), took a nap (for much too long) and wasted time reading blogs and facebook posts. I want to get rid of my facebook, but I know I’ll never see most of those people again, and I like to see what’s up with them. Oh well. I need to set up a daily time limit of wasting time. I should learn yoga. I took 2 quizzes. Bleh. My head phones broke. After they sent an electrical current up to my ears. It hurt. Jill and I had a laughing attack for about 5 minutes while we were eating. We just couldn't stop. It hurt so bad! I almost threw up because I was laughing so hard then coughing so hard. My emotions are so out of control. I don’t understand myself. I feel like crying all the time, and then five seconds later i'm doing just fine. I'm loving college, but I feel like something is missing.

I’m listening to Mason Jennings and it reminds me of skiing with my dad. I hope I’m allowed to go skiing up here. I haven’t been able to go forever. L

Hopefully tomorrow will be better. I need to go running for 90 minutes then I might go on an adventure with Shy up the canyon and do some exploring, and maybe some swimming in the freezing water. Chin up

Here's videos from my last ride 2 weeks ago. Running bareback while holding a camera= not the best video, but I like it anyways.

# 185

One of my New Years resolutions was to read the Hymn book. I love it. I usually read it as part of my scripture study, and it has made such a difference. I am almost completely musically illiterate, but that doesn't matter. I read them like I read the scriptures, underlining and making notes. Tonight I read Hymn number 185, "Reverently and Meekly Now". By reading the hymns, especially the sacrament hymns, it makes me want to become a better person. I want to do everything I can to live with my Heavenly Father again.

"Bid thine heart all strife to cease;with thy brethren be at peace.

Oh, forgive as thou wouldst be E'en forgiven now by me.

In the solemn faith of prayer cast upon me all they care,

And my Spirit's grace shall be like a fountain unto thee."

"At the throne I intercede; for thee ever do I plead.

I have loved thee as thy friend with a love that cannot end.

Be obedient, I implore, Prayerful, watchful evermore,

And be constant unto me, that thy Savior I may be."

*D&C 45:3-5: Listen to him who is the advocate with the Father, who is pleading your cause before him-

Saying: Father, behold the sufferings and death of him who did no sin, in whom thou wast well pleased; behold the blood of thy Son which was shed, the blood of him whom thou gavest that thyself might be glorified;

Wherefore, Father, spare these my brethren that believe on my name, that they may come unto me and have everlasting life.