Carrie Underwood

I love her songs. But this is sad. How did she know??

My prayers go out to those in Oklahoma.

Learned

I’m currently in one of the weirdest stages of my life. I just finished up my second year at Utah State and as of right now I have absolutely no clue what I want to be when I grow up. (Surprise Surprise) I’ve pursued degrees in Exercise Science, Physical Education Teaching, and Nursing just long enough to spend lots of money and take classes very specific to that major only to realize that’s not the way I want to go. It’s like a roller coaster. Always very exciting.

I ran cross country and track again this year and I’m so very glad I did. I gained better relationships with my coaches and teammates and had some of the best races of my life. I learned how to work with my professors because I was gone so much, and so I got to know them. I learned to work hard and try to stay positive with humor and that sometimes it’s okay to be sassy as long as I am respectful. I learned that for me it really is better to be outgoing at first and help others to break out of their shell rather than waiting for someone else to get me to break out of mine. I learned to be bold and take leaps of faith more often. I learned that sometimes saying “YOLO” to myself really does work. I learned how to surf. I learned that hospital cafeteria food really isn’t that bad because I volunteered there once a week and enjoyed the free meal. I learned that I really suck at biking and that is definitely something I need to work on. I learned I really do enjoy swimming and also I am terrified of the unknown, especially underwatery unknowness. I learned that I should smile more often. I learned that my insides have a mind of my own and cause me pain. I learned that I really think anesthesia is fascinating. (But no, I don’t want to be an anesthesiologist) I learned that I am far from fearless but I can take a deep breath and slowly conquer that fear. I learned I don’t get along with everyone even when I try really hard. I learned to roll with the punches and try to enjoy the curve balls that are thrown my way. I learned that I really enjoy cooking deserts, and not much else. I learned to learn from the people I surround myself with and be better off because of it. I learned that my emotions are just ridiculous. I learned I can do 100 pushups a day if I commit myself to it. I learned to be patient and not be irrational. I learned to love the people I am with and find ways to truly care about them. I learned Heavenly Father loves me and has a lot to teach me. I learned I need to be an example of the believers at all times. I’ve learned to take time for myself and do what I want to do. I’ve learned that the big picture is the important part. I’ve learned that nature is one of the best things. I’ve learned to accept and embrace my body the way it is. I’ve learned that writing thank you notes is a really great thing. I’ve learned that dancing and singing by myself is a great way to give myself some time. I've learned frozen yogurt is one of the best ways to celebrate living. I’ve learned I spend too much time in the mirror. I’ve learned I really don’t care about shaving. I’ve learned dryer sheets are a good way to cover up bad flatulence. I’ve learned that I have great friends. I’ve learned to appreciate cleanliness. I've learned to be very grateful my parents love and support each other.

I’ve learned to keep in touch. I’ve learned a lot. What have you learned?

Woot Woot I still have 2 ovaries!

So I had a big ovarian cyst (T'was about the size of a baby head) and it needed to come out! It's been there since the fall and has been making me have a hard time running. So I'm very happy that it's out! However, bad dreams about my grandpa's dog having a lion mane made me.... upset. Here's a look into my mind on drugs:

 

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It was a rough few hours going in and out of consciousness. But now I'm home! So if you want to come visit feel free cuz I'm just chillin at home. And it would be marvelous if you brought food because I'm gonna get fat anyways. 

The downside to this surgery is that I have minimal use of my abs and it hurts to cough, sneeze, laugh, sit up, bend over, etc. It's a bummer. It hurts to lay down because they bloated me up with carbon dioxide and it isn't all gone yet so it's pushing on my diaphragm and I have referred pain in my shoulder and chest. It's like having a side ache everywhere all at the same time. It's not fun. I'm sleepy. 

Sweet Sunshine

Here's to my short summer before my real summer begins. It's been weird because school ended, I came home for a few days, went back to Logan for two days then went to Texas for 5 days, now I'm back in Orem and in a few hours I'll be headed back to Logan, then comin back to O-Town. THEN in less than a week I'll begin my real summer adventure and head to MOAB. It's been kinda crazy as of late but every now and then I get to step back and breathe.



Cheers to growing